Wednesday, July 11, 2012

D119.. What's the point in trying?!

Today was okay. I was so exhausted again that I couldn't get up this morning.  So I was really sweating when I did my cardio this afternoon.  Oh boy!!  I'm not expecting anything grand tomorrow morning on the scale.  It has been an awful week of me be angry a lot and trying to control it.  There is something wrong with me.  I swear I have depression but the symptoms come and go. I was feeling really good for a long time and now I just don't care.  There is so much going on in my life and I feel like I'm the only one worried.  Sometimes I really hate being married and having responsibility.  Is it really worth it?  Some days I wonder.  I hate balancing the check book and I hate seeing bills come in the mail.

I thought things would be different when I lost my job. I knew it would be hard but I thought someone would step up.  It's just frustrating.  And sorry this isn't a marriage blog so i'll shut up.  I have been good about my meal plan so no worries there.  I will be really upset and sad if I don't see the scale down a lot tomorrow.  Like I said. it's been a rough week. I have dishes and laundry to do.  Night all!! And before someone says, I know someone most likely is having a harder time than us, but I bet they qualify for food stamps.  Just saying!!

1 comment:

  1. Sorry, Sharon. I know it is no fun when things are hard and it feels like it is all coming down on your head. Here's hoping the rest of the week goes a bit better.

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