D194, 195, 196...Who else feels overwhelmed?

I'm finding less and less time to blog.  I may have to give it up. I also have been having horrible food cravings.  Garg!!  I hate going through this this time of the month.  I am however loving the fall weather and I'm getting more and more excited for Halloween. For more than one reason.  My sister Care, her wife, and their baby girl will be here for Halloween. The last time they were here I was super sick and couldn't meet my niece.  Boo!!  I'm not planning one being sick this time.  So I don't want to step on the dreaded, evil scale tomorrow.  I asked Adam tonight why I can feel so fat and have my clothes still feel like they're falling off.  He said cause I'm not fat.  Then why do I feel like it? hehe!!  I know why.

The rain this week was fantastic.  And snow in the higher elevations?  Sweet!!  Not that I'm a skier but I love to see snow in the mountains. I drink a lot of water so if we have a lot of snow I don't feel as guilty drinking it. hehe!!  All and all I will get on the scale tomorrow.  If it goes well I won't throw the scale out the window. lol!!  I did do the biggest looser workout video that  Sarah gave me and holy cow. I did the whole video which has two of each cardio and resistance.  I was sore before I got to the resistance part.  Phew!! That was rough but I loved it.  Bob Harper you're mean but I love you anyway.  Have a great night all!!

Updating on Day 193. A whole week. Gees!!

So I had no time to blog last week due to the fact that we went down to St. George and Cedar City.  We left Thursday and got back today.  So I was busy doing laundry and making food list and trying to pack while I helped out my sister one day.  Phew!! But it all worked out in the end.  It's currently super cloudy and the clouds were dark  but no rain. We did get rained on coming home though. It was awesome.

 We went down to St. George for a wedding. A cousin of Adam's was sealed in the Temple down there.  First time I've been in that temple.  Beautiful.  The boys did good with Ariel and another cousin and her husband while we were at the ceremony.  The fitness room at the hotel in St. George didn't have a great machine for resistance and the treadmill I used Friday and Saturday was so different from mine but worked great.  Saturday I had a running mate.  A lady on her way from San Diego to Montana.  We talked nearly the whole time she was there.  She came in after me and left before me.  I ran the whole time she was there. She told me I had great stamina.  It's getting there.  She was super nice.

Saturday when we got to Cedar City our hotel there didn't have a fitness area and my workout clothes stunk so I wasn't going to go to Gold's Gym. So I searched the internet for my favorite yoga workout and youtube had it. So I did yoga meltdown Saturday night.  My arms are sore.  Friday when I ran in St. George for the first time I got a side stitch.  I got used to the elevation change pretty fast though.  We almost got DK in the pool Friday night as well.

Now I know what you are all waiting for. I brought all of my own food. We ate out at approved place twice.  Dinner Thursday and Wendy's and lunch at Subway Saturday.  I did have two bags of sun chips over the weekend, some chocolate covered fruit and a cinnamon bear at the reception Saturday, and some nibs today.  Sorry. I was super tired.  But also, Aunt Flo is coming and it was bad to be on a trip when I have bad cravings.  Trips always have snack written all over them. Especially road trips.  So I think I did pretty good.  I could have done better, but I'm happy I never gave into my Icee or slurpee craving.  I will try to do better at updating on here so you don't get bored of my long rantings.  Oh and I lost a pound when I weighed in on Thursday.  I'm down to 167.  58 pounds gone.  Night all!!

Another freaking three days. Argh!!

Friday-9/14-184-Dk's birthday-the boys were pretty good.  Got the house cleaned with some interruptions.  You can't have two toddlers and not get interrupted. If that's the case, I would love some pointers. hehe!!  I got to Kitchen Kneads to get the rest of the ingredients to my carb friendly cake that I made for DK's party. My dad didn't believe me. Other than the carbs from the oat bran and oat flour the whole cake had a total of 32 carbs.  Cake and topping included.  So if you cut in nine pieces, each piece was under four extra carbs. I don't know how many carbs are in a cup of oat bran and oat flour.  I think that's pretty good. I did over cook it so it was a bit dry.  But it was tasty.  Everyone liked it.  I do have the recipe if anyone wants it to try it out.  Oh and I baked it in 9" baking dish and I cut it into 12 pieces. I had to have small ones for the little's. hehe!!  Since I didn't get a chance to run on the treadmill Adam and I went out at 10 to run.  We ran for an hour.  It was great.  I even got whistled at on 4100 South.  It made me laugh but I shouted my thank you's. People crack me up.

Saturday-9/15-185-After a late fun on Friday I woke up tired not to mention all the work I had been doing in and out of the house.  I got on the treadmill and it was less than stellar of a workout but I survived.  I also did some resistance with my favorite resistance ball trainer. Adam hated his voice and asked how I could stand listening to him.  Jealous!! hehe!! Just kidding.  It doesn't bother me because I'm just trying to keep up. Ariel was laughing at me because I was grunting a lot.  I'm pretty soar today.  In places I didn't expect to be sore in.  HHMM??!!  We watched my little sister's girls so they could go on their Anniversary date.  One year.  Congrats you two.  They had gone to the fair before coming over and the baby woke up confused and had a tough night.  But it was fun to have them. We went for a little walk with the four smallest.  And then I finished laundry and Adam bathed the boys.  We took turns trying to keep the baby happy.

Sunday-9/16-186-I did not want to get out of bed.  The boys just would't stay in their beds and kept wanting to snuggle with me.  Cute yes, but when Adam gets cold he does the same so I barely had room on the bed.  haha!!  But we made it to church just a little late and Siko was less than good during primary but he'll get used to it....eventually.  The day has been lazy.  DK has been napping forever. Makes me jealous.  I hope everyone is having a lovely Sunday.  The cake above looks like all topping but it's not. hehe!!

D183...That's it???!!!!!!!

Well I lost the last random pound I gained.  Yeah!!  I would have loved to be 160 by now but what can you do.  "Keep moving forward" I guess.  I'm trying. with all that's in me to keep my focus and keep being positive. This morning I got out and did the weeding, no laundry folding however, did get my hour in on the treadmill eventually and I am pooped. I actually  missed being outside today while I ran. My knees, especially my left knee, are just screaming.  My left shin is having issues too this evening.  I keep forgetting that the day's are getting shorter so I think I have more sun light than I do. I hate that.  Dang brain. Keep up. hehe!!  I'm actually surprised that pound was gone. I feel like I've  gained 15 pounds.  Why is that? I don't like that feeling.  I feel like I don't deserve to be the weight I long to be.  I feel like I'm being selfish for wanting it.  I think that's why i feel like I've gained weight.  Dang feelings. Go away already.

Tomorrow is DK's 2nd birthday.  I nearly cancelled his party.  The boys were very naughty today and I actually wished I had a full time job.  Then again, no one would watch them because they are satin's spawn I swear.  Most days I wish I could go somewhere and be alone.  Or get a drink. Which ever is cheapest. Now days, neither are. lol!!  But I try to breath and not get to angry and think I should be writing this down for the books I long to write.  Tomorrow is house cleaning and laundry day.  Yippee!! " I'm so excited I could spit."  You get bonus points for knowing the movie that quote is from. However it may not be exact.  But it's close enough.  One of my favorites.  I'm going to bed now......well maybe.  Night all!!

D182...Finish check list for today? Check!!

Gees almighty.  I got a lot of stuff done today but boy am I tired.  Woke up snuggling with the boys this morning. It was cold in the house. I loved it.  Had the windows open all day.  It was a very nice fall like day. Too bad it won't last.  Le sigh!!  I got on the treadmill this morning and ran for 30 of the 40 minutes I was on it.  Now before you freak out and think, "what the crap? I thought it was an hour?"  It is.  I will explain the rest later.  After the treadmill I ate lunch and then folded laundry while I watched the second transformer movie. I just love those movies.  Good looking guys and awesome alien robots! How can you go wrong? haha!!  But I digress.  After the laundry was folded I went to get Ariel and Alyssa from school. They had the hello dance today.  I also washed like three loads of towels.  Holy monkey that's a lot.  So more folding to do tomorrow.

After we came home I ate my snack and then started dinner. I also cleaned the dishes.  I got all of my meals in today mostly on time.  It's a work in continual process I swear.  lol!!  Then I ate my dinner.  Ya the other dinner I can't eat right now.  Kyle came over and ate dinner with us and then after Adam came home from home teaching we went out running/walking/jogging.  It was amazing.  I totally loved running outside. I had to  look at the ground the whole time though. A-it was dark. B-i trip on nothing. C-the movement was weird and made me dizzy. I don't have that issue on the treadmill. Must be the uneven ground.  We need to get registered for  that 5k.  I wish my knees would stop hurting too.  I must run funny.   But the pic I posted is of my new outside running gear.  I just hate that dang spare tire that sticks out still.  GGRR!! Just go away already.  Oh and sports bras are just not flattering. But they do work for the purpose they serve. haha!!  Good night all!!

D180&181..."More than meets the eye."

Monday-Sept 10th-Can you tell what I've been watching. hehe!!  So yesterday Ariel stayed home. She's has a wicked cold and I hope it won't spread.  We didn't run yesterday because it looked like it was going to rain and didn't really do a lot of that so we could have ran. So I treadmilled and did some resistance.  The temps have been very nice though.  It got super windy last night and I thought for sure we'd get a huge storm but no. Most of the rain is staying in the south.  I'm praying for relief for them and us up here in the north.

Tuesday-Sept 11th-I got on the treadmill early because we thought it was going to rain a lot today but no. It has down south and they have floods now.  It's a little frustrating.  I guess we'll get it eventually. I did run for nearly 45 mins at my new top speed of 5 mph.  Awesome.  The boys were really good till the last 15 mins of my run.  DK fell asleep  while I was eating my lunch. hehe!! Climbed right up and nearly on my plate. Dang kids are so cute and naughty at the same time.  It's also the 11th anniversary of 9-11 when the towers in New York collapsed after to jet liners struck them.  Two other plains went down as well.  To those who lost their loved whether on that day or since, we love you and mourn with you.  This act affected us all in some way or another. Thank you for being strong and thank you to all of those who helped on that day and since.

D178&D179......Another busy weekend finished? Check!

Saturday Sept 8th-Started with a run on the treadmill, then a baptism followed by the lunch on(I gave a talk on the Holy Ghost for the baptism), then lunch for me, then just hanging out and watering, then off to my nieces bridal shower we went which was awesome, then Adam came to pick Ariel and myself up, then Adam and I got ready to go to the last prom I'll be too in the old Granger High School.  It was so much fun. Got to see some old friends. I say old because I've known most of them since Kindergarten. We are not old by any means.  hehe!!  But I wore my 9th grade promotion dress.  It rocked although I forgot how heavy the fabric is and it kept pulling on my neck. We looked hot.  And we didn't have Ariel a take a pic of course so we are lame.  But we got a few while we were there and Joann Posted them on Facebook.  We walked around the school and Adam commented on how small the gym is compared to West Jordan High.  Well Granger is a bit older than West Jordan. They are going to tare Granger down then the new one is finished.  It'll be sad but I can't wait to see the new one.

Sunday Sept 9th-Was stake conference so we slept in. We were going to go to Adam's parent's ward with them and the boys but Ariel didn't want to go to her dad's and then she said she wasn't feeling good. She actually stayed home today from School.  We watched Battleship finally and it was so good.  We loved it.  When we got to the in laws we talked to Kyle about running outside. and I've been searching for 5k's and haven't been too successful.  I'm still looking though.  But it's time for lunch so I will blog later about today's adventures.  Have a great day all and Happy Birthday Katie!! 

D177....I need to remember one thing.....

Always call Sarah when I get discouraged.  She's been where I've been.  I saw her today, twice actually.  The first time was for a measure.  It's been four weeks since my last measure and I've lost 5% body fat.  Ya people, that's a lot.  So Sarah up my lunch and dinner protein, changed up my alternating breakfast a little, gave me free range for my veggies(so I can eat what I want as long as it's 1 1/2 cups), and if needed I can up my carb at night a little and my greek yogurt.  So the few pounds that I've gained is truly muscle. It's hard to tell with all the left over skin. Ya, you'll have sweet dreams tonight now huh?  Hanging skin.  Yummy!!  But that's what happens when you loose a lot of weight.  Especially when you do it twice in 10 years.

Sarah also reminded me not to go by the scale.  It's just a number.  It's hard to think of it like that, but she's right. You're pretty much always right Sarah.  And I've conceded to run a 5K.  Sarah's already talking Ragnar next July and that has me freaking out.  She also said "5k this year, half marathon next year".  AAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!  She's told me it'll be easy. So I will be looking into some Thanksgiving Day 5k's.  She wants me to do the Timpanogos Half next year. I better keep the training going now.  Adam and I will be running outside to get used to the road and the fresh air. hehe!!  Yes everyone. Adam will be running the 5k with me, Sarah, Chris(Sarah's hubby), and Kyle(Adam's little brother).  I'm actually excited for it.  I never thought I would be.  Also, I got to 4.75 miles today and I ran at 5 mph for almost 35 mins.  I never went below 4.8 mph.  Awesome.  So if anyone wants to join Adam and I for an evening run let me know.  The more the merrier right?  Night all!!

D176...Sometimes I wonder

A boo weigh in. I'm getting depressed and disappointed and I'm wondering everyday if it's still worth it.  Is all the sacrifice worth it? I kill myself on the treadmill six days a week as well as my resistance twice a week. I really wish I could do that three times a week however. I know muscle weighs more than fat but I don't want to see the scale go up. I'd rather see it not move than go up.  GGRR!!  I'm angry.  I hate being angry. It's been a rotten few days.  The only good thing was we fed the missionaries today.  But even then dinner was late because I got started late.  The Elders we have right now are awesome.  Of course they're all computer oriented so Adam was in the zone. hehe!!

I need to prepare a small talk for a baptism on Saturday. Tomorrow is a busy day and Saturday is worse, even though most of the busy is all fun stuff.  Thank goodness it's Stake Conference Sunday.  We may be able to sleep in if we need to.  I'm also starting to wonder if every shopping trip I take with the boys is going to seem like I'm shopping with 15 boys.  lol!!  I don't know if I mentioned this yesterday or not but one of the manager's at Costco asked if Siko was in preschool and was shocked when I said no. hehe!! He's is super tall. People have been asking that question a lot lately.  Well good night.  Time to sleep off the discouragement.

D175-The days are getting shorter. Ah, Fall is close!!

Today was another busy day.  We had a Costco trip today.  It was good. The boys did good till they got bored and it was Siko that started the hitting.  But over all it was good.  DK got up early today so an early nap and it was a long one.  He started to get tired before we left and thankfully didn't fall asleep on the way there.  I got my workout in after lunch but had to stop twice. Once to check on the boys because I thought they were being naughty and another time to unlock the door for Ariel. I forgot to do it before I got on the treadmill.  Boo my memory sucks.  I should have listened to my grandma when she told me not to get old.  hehe!!

So tomorrow is another weigh in.  Boo!!  I fear I'm doomed to never be the weight I earn to be.  I think I'll always be the chubby girl I was when I hit puberty.  My knees are killing me just about everyday.  My muscles still ache after resistance and I just don't feel a change. And then after last week I'm scared to face the scale again. I know I'm being over dramatic but it helps to vent.   I also have some killer hang nails.  Ouch.  I hope they are better by Friday.  haha!!  Anyway, I need to get some laundry folded so I can't start some more tomorrow and it's also bath night.  Yippy!! DK will be so happy.  Evening all!!

Holy four days. I've been so busy and sleepy.

Day 171-Saturday September 1, 2012- After a night of little sleep, thanks so four thunderstorms that came one after the other with awesome pouring rain, I was pretty slow all day.  We had a hair appointment in the morning but I did get both my workouts in and all my meals, roughly on time.  We also went to Wal-Mart.  I got some new house pants that will fit better than the ones I've been wearing. hehe!!

Day 172-Sunday September 2- Fast Sunday.  Boy these days keep getting harder and harder.  I try really hard to make it till 3 before I eat but after another night of no sleep and then not eating just took it's toll. We went to dinner at the in laws and watched Death Becomes Her.  I didn't remember that many butt shots in that movie. My mother in law at one point asked what it was rated. hehe!!  But it's a pretty funny movie. I believe this is one that I saw with my sister Care when it came out.

Day 173-Monday September 3- After a late night and early morning we went to Seven Peaks one last time before the season closes.  Not a lot of people till we left at about 1:30.  It was just Adam, Siko, Adam's parents, and me.  DK spent that time with my parents since he doesn't really like water currently.  Siko had a blast doggie paddling with a life jacket on in the wave pool and the lazy river.  I didn't plan on being there past lunch and didn't have enough time to make it so I didn't eat lunch till 2:30 and my snack after I did my cardio.  Then we had a BBQ at my parents with Syd and Heidi and their families.  That was a lot of fun.  The kids all got a long and played fun games.

Day 174-Today- wouldn't you know. I didn't get a lot of sleep again.  The boys have been coming into bed with us a lot lately.  DK has gone a week without a pacifier and he's tried asking for it twice but forgets pretty quick.  He just woke up from a short late nap and he's super ornery.  He'll get over it  but it's sort of annoying. He's also been taking the books off the bookshelf.  Both times he did it today I was working out. Of course.  We need to make so he can't do that period.  The stinker. I told Ariel today that he is my punishment for not having more kids.  But after having him I'm thankful he's my last.  He really tests me.  Maybe I need that.  Overall a good day today. Ariel started dance today. She has two classes in one day.  Oi!!  But she enjoyed her first class and made new friends.  I can't believe it's September already.  It hasn't been as hot here since those awesome rainstorms blew through Friday and Saturday.  Have a great evening and night and I'll try to do better at keeping up.