D183...That's it???!!!!!!!

Well I lost the last random pound I gained.  Yeah!!  I would have loved to be 160 by now but what can you do.  "Keep moving forward" I guess.  I'm trying. with all that's in me to keep my focus and keep being positive. This morning I got out and did the weeding, no laundry folding however, did get my hour in on the treadmill eventually and I am pooped. I actually  missed being outside today while I ran. My knees, especially my left knee, are just screaming.  My left shin is having issues too this evening.  I keep forgetting that the day's are getting shorter so I think I have more sun light than I do. I hate that.  Dang brain. Keep up. hehe!!  I'm actually surprised that pound was gone. I feel like I've  gained 15 pounds.  Why is that? I don't like that feeling.  I feel like I don't deserve to be the weight I long to be.  I feel like I'm being selfish for wanting it.  I think that's why i feel like I've gained weight.  Dang feelings. Go away already.

Tomorrow is DK's 2nd birthday.  I nearly cancelled his party.  The boys were very naughty today and I actually wished I had a full time job.  Then again, no one would watch them because they are satin's spawn I swear.  Most days I wish I could go somewhere and be alone.  Or get a drink. Which ever is cheapest. Now days, neither are. lol!!  But I try to breath and not get to angry and think I should be writing this down for the books I long to write.  Tomorrow is house cleaning and laundry day.  Yippee!! " I'm so excited I could spit."  You get bonus points for knowing the movie that quote is from. However it may not be exact.  But it's close enough.  One of my favorites.  I'm going to bed now......well maybe.  Night all!!